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the ghost of lobster dinners past

| December 19, 2008

1993: as near as i can figure, lobster dinners started christmas of my junior year of high school. the original guests included my parents and me. the menu has changed little since that first meal: lobster, baked potato, and a salad, although the salad dropped off in the early 2000′s because it just got in [...]

i am angry and ashamed of it

| October 29, 2008

every time i see something about patrick swayze that doesn’t end with “passed away today” i am briefly filled with blinding rage. then regret. then supersadness. then more anger, because being sad doesn’t take away being mad. rinse repeat until i distract myself. it’s not that i don’t like him. it’s not that i wish [...]

one gloomy thought before celebrating

| June 27, 2008

it isn’t father’s day, or his birthday, or the day he died or the funeral or any of those anniversaries that flatten my resistance to the absence of my father. it’s june 21, december 21, and my birthday. last year it smacked me in the face when my dad didn’t call at 10:50 in the [...]

2007: in review

| January 1, 2008

so, how’d i do? drink less soda (maybe 1 a day?) well, i’m not sure what “less” was before i got pregnant, but due to pregnancy and breastfeeding, i’ve cut back to 1-2 “doses” of caffeine a day. that’s certainly less than the “triple venti” mornings i used to have. i’d call this one accomplished     [...]

2007 mid-ish year recap

| September 1, 2007

wherein kelly throws herself a whiny pity party and decides upon review that she really doesn’t care about the tense shifting and inconsistent capitalization enough to do anything about it. let’s recap, shall we? January bad: found out my dad’s “spots” were very terminal pancreatic cancer February good: *finally* sold our damn house. bittersweet: found [...]

dear summer blockbusters

| May 26, 2007

please stop using the untimely death of parental figures as a prominent plot point/character motivator of characters in your films. this goes especially true if the parental figure is a father and the character is a blond female. i am 3 for 3 at this point, but only one has reduced me to actual, painful [...]

dad post #1: the couch

| May 5, 2007

so i have lots of things to say about the past couple of weeks. i’m going to start with the couch. at most funeral services i’ve attended that take place in the funeral home itself there is a couch. this couch is usually the center of the front row or the entire front row. there [...]

4:12pm

| April 27, 2007

5/6/46 – 4/27/07 …i’m searching for something profound, or significant, or a bit of an extremely inside joke to cap this post off, but i’m kinda coming up blank.

and she never posted again

| April 22, 2007

don’t feel too neglected. it’s not like i’m making uber-regular updates on the baby blog. i’m sort of in this “blah” or “meh” state right now. the baby’s doing its thing and baking quite nicely. it hasn’t given me too hard a time so far with symptoms and cravings, so i really shouldn’t complain. work [...]

weekend update: part one

| March 31, 2007

sort of left you hanging there on sunday, didn’t i? sorry about that. this week’s been kind of…odd. more on that later. as far as dad goes, (incase you’re not checking his blog on a daily basis), they decided on monday not to do the surgery because it looked like his body and the blood [...]