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the ghost of lobster dinners past

kelly | December 19, 2008

1993: as near as i can figure, lobster dinners started christmas of my junior year of high school. the original guests included my parents and me. the menu has changed little since that first meal: lobster, baked potato, and a salad, although the salad dropped off in the early 2000’s because it just got [...]

cold november reign

kelly | October 26, 2008

here’s what’s happening in the next month (in general planning order and including the last week of october):

3+ birthday parties: two dinners, one casino night. (ever wonder why the end of october and the beginning of november is so chock full of birthdays? valentine’s day is appx 38 weeks earlier.)
make hella baby food: finger [...]

one gloomy thought before celebrating

kelly | June 27, 2008

it isn’t father’s day, or his birthday, or the day he died or the funeral or any of those anniversaries that flatten my resistance to the absence of my father. it’s june 21, december 21, and my birthday.
last year it smacked me in the face when my dad didn’t call at 10:50 in the morning [...]

not my best day

kelly | March 31, 2008

so…it’s been a week. and then another week. …and then a third week? surely not. i think it’s only been the two. anyway, my “a week and then i’ll see,” week is totally up.
the first week was full of all sorts of potential planning. i didn’t get very [...]

serenity achieved – the payoff

kelly | February 17, 2008

since this is largely about the tattoo, i’ll skim over the first part of the day. despite the unfriendly weather and terrain, ashes were scattered, along with a few silver dollars and some roses. it was harder than i thought it would be. we listened to one of my dad’s favorite songs as [...]

serenity achieved – the setup

kelly | February 16, 2008

my mother has been struggling with the right “moment” to scatter my dad’s ashes. her first targets, their anniversary and new year’s day, had come and gone with a confession of “i’m just not ready yet.” a few weeks ago, she had a new idea. we would scatter his ashes on valentine’s [...]

2007: in review

kelly | January 1, 2008

so, how’d i do?
drink less soda (maybe 1 a day?)
well, i’m not sure what “less” was before i got pregnant, but due to pregnancy and breastfeeding, i’ve cut back to 1-2 “doses” of caffeine a day. that’s certainly less than the “triple venti” mornings i used to have. i’d call this one accomplished    

drink way [...]

2007 mid-ish year recap

kelly | September 1, 2007

wherein kelly throws herself a whiny pity party and decides upon review that she really doesn’t care about the tense shifting and inconsistent capitalization enough to do anything about it.
let’s recap, shall we?
January
bad: found out my dad’s “spots” were very terminal pancreatic cancer
February
good: *finally* sold our damn house.
bittersweet: found out friends were pregnant (what? i’m [...]

milestone reached

kelly | June 27, 2007

Today I turned 30 years old.
It was both more and less traumatic than I had anticipated. I was worried earlier in the year/last year that if I wasn’t pregnant, it was going to be an ugly day. There’s this sort of unspoken “line” at 30 that makes pregnancy harder, etc, and [...]

dear summer blockbusters

kelly | May 26, 2007

please stop using the untimely death of parental figures as a prominent plot point/character motivator of characters in your films. this goes especially true if the parental figure is a father and the character is a blond female. i am 3 for 3 at this point, but only one has reduced me to [...]