when potential becomes kinetic

i’ve passed the point where i’ve become disgusted by how angsty i’ve become for worthless reasons.

i’ve passed the point where i get a really great feel for the depth of my emoangst. (because knowing is 1/2 the battle?)

i’ve actively listened to and discovered how unhelpful my internal soundtrack is.

i’ve started to add new music to my internal soundtrack. it hasn’t replaced the crap, but it’s starting to drown it out, little by little.

i’ve recognized many of my triggers and many of the binds that have been keeping me here when i want to be there.

i will slowly untie myself from these binds. i will slowly become immune to those triggers.

i will not reach too high to soon. i will not make drastic changes and expect flawless results. i will take small steps and build tiny scaffolding to support this restructuring.

and now i’m going to go read a book :)