don’t feel too neglected. it’s not like i’m making uber-regular updates on the baby blog.
i’m sort of in this “blah” or “meh” state right now. the baby’s doing its thing and baking quite nicely. it hasn’t given me too hard a time so far with symptoms and cravings, so i really shouldn’t complain.
work is…well, it’s beyond. it’s getting better, though, and the next couple of weeks (with a key new-hire and some org shifting) should make some fundamental differences.
dad is … well, to be blunt about it: dad’s dying. fast. we try to visit once or twice a week, and there was a drastic difference between his health/attitude/ability from last week to this. part of this, i know, is because they’ve upped his pain meds considerably, but part if it is just the slow march to death. the cancer has eaten up most of his liver, and even with the munchie-inducing drugs, he doesn’t have much of an appetite. even when he wants to eat, he’s pretty unable to.
hospice is coming out to the house tomorrow to assess everything so they can get it set up. part of me feels like a horrible person for wanting it to go quickly, but i know that comes from not wanting my father or my mother to suffer needlessly. it’s only going to suck more from here on out, until it can start getting better on the other side.
see why i don’t post?