i’m occasionally quite rational, you know
so this phenomenon has been happening rather frequently in the past few months: people are getting pregnant. it’s true. in the past 2 or so months i’ve learned of 5 impending births. number jumps to 6 if you count the ski’s properly cuz i *know* they’re having twins, even if there’s no proof yet.
the peculiar part about this is that by and large, nobody wants to tell me about it.
is it upsetting to learn that someone is pregnant while i’m still trying? briefly, selfishly, but only for a very small fraction of the time. why wouldn’t i be happy for happy couples who have managed to pull it off? yes, we’re struggling. yes, it hasn’t been easy. but it’s only been a year. i know people who’ve struggled longer and harder than that. it’s not like someone stole my baby, or somehow “cheated” and got one before me.
and really? what happens if you don’t tell me? big news tends to not stay silent for long and even if it does, i’ll probably notice eventually and be sad that i didn’t get to share in the party. it’s more than a little unsettling to discover that everyone around you knows something and nobody wants to tell you.
so please, if you’re reading this and you’re pregnant and you’re not telling me because you don’t want to upset me, stop. tell me. i can be happy. i’m a big girl.
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